you are either someone who knows me and is willing to put up with long periods of time between posts (Hi Dominique! Hi Mom!) or some poor lost person that ended up at this site by accident. If you are the former, let me say, “Thank you! I love you!”, and if you are the latter, I would like to say, “I’m sorry you’re lost, but wow, you’re looking good today. Would you like a cupcake?”
I recently celebrated my 35th birthday and then proceeded to flip out about all the things I haven’t accomplished in my life. And seriously, I am beginning to doubt titling this blog “On the Bright Side” because I have been on a real Debbie Downer kick since I started posting earlier this year. And the last thing I want to do is bum anybody out.
On the other hand, I just think this is all part of the journey of dealing with chronic illness. And one day, when I get my head straight and have gained some wisdom about how to deal with it all, I will be able to turn around and help others dealing with it.
Earlier last month, I actually thought I would no longer have a place to live. And that basically knocked me down hard because I am at a place in life where the alternative is homelessness. By the time I was given a reprieve, I was an emotional wreck, because I have come face to face with how precarious my situation is.
The anxiety of my unknown future has been like wrestling with a bear every day. Thankfully, my faith has anchored my heart, even if my mind is adrift in turmoil. I may not like the journey right now, but knowing God is at my side makes everything bearable and gives me hope for a better tomorrow.
That sounded cheery. But things will get better. Hope I didn’t bum you out…ugh. Email me and maybe I’ll dig up those cupcakes for you. A boxed mix is okay, right?
hug, hug, hug!
April
Fibromyalgia AWARE magazine
Hope everything works ok!
By: Sarakastic on July 27, 2010
at 7:07 AM
Thanks Sara, you are very sweet and it’s great to see you. Hope everything is going well for you. Hug!
By: April on July 28, 2010
at 12:20 AM
April!!! I was JUST thinking about you yesterday
I’m so sorry that you have been going through so much 
(and I’ve missed you)!
I hope that everything is starting to smooth out for you with the housing situation.
Sending you tons of love and gentle hugs!
~Nancy
By: Nancy on July 30, 2010
at 8:20 AM
Thanks Nancy! I really appreciate your thoughts and hugs. Hope you’re doing well too!
Hug back atcha!
April
By: April on August 2, 2010
at 9:35 PM
I am so sad that you even came CLOSE to my situation! Ouch! You are so right though. I have really been feeling that my help and provision does not come from man but from God. God might work it out so that my provision comes through man but I have to remind myself that He is always my provision.
I will be keeping you in my prayers and thoughts and hoping that God will provide you a secure, safe and stable place to call you own.
Love you and sending lots of hugs. I’m not too good with the cupcakes!
I have missed you as well! Good to have you back!
By: Dominique on August 10, 2010
at 5:28 PM